Thursday, November 11th, 2021
I went to work again today. I had a nice time in the tutorials with the students, but today was pretty draining. Normally, there are four tutors but two were out today so it was just me and a colleague handling ~30 students per class. We had some help from a couple of students and another tutor from a different class, but today's work was still really hectic.
I walked over to my grandparent's house after work. I like spending time with them. I helped them put away hoses and a powerwasher for winter.
Today is Veteran's Day in my country, where we remember all of the soldiers, sailors, and airmen who gave their lives in service to this country. I respect the people who go and join up with the military, but I can't bring myself to respect(?) my country. It's weird, there's a tension! I love my country, but I don't agree with how imperialist we are! There's an awful successor ideology supplanting the democratic liberalism that used to be the focus of our country, and if I were to join the military, I'd become a footsoldier for that hostile ideological system. If my state had a Self-Defence Force, I think I'd join -- alas, there's not one where I live.
I've been feeling [(negative, depressed) ∨ (negative ∧ depressed)] recently, and I hate it. A lot of this has been from >tfw no gf, some of it has been from family problems, and some of it has been from work fatigue. My work's not hard or particularly stressful, I just want to do more. It's awful when one of your family members flies off the handle over vaccines and coronavirus autism. And I really shouldn't still be going >tfw no gf right now, I have every opportunity to just ask someone!
Bah, whatever. I'll get over this. These feelings come around when I feel like I'm not doing enough. When I'm doing things I like, those feelings are far from me.
St. Martin of Tours
In signs and in miracles you were renowned throughout Gaul. / By grace and adoption you are a light for the world, O Martin, blessed of God. / Almsgiving and compassion filled your life with their splendors, / teaching and wise counsel were your riches and treasures, / which you dispense freely to those who honor you.
Ss. Menas, Victor, and Vincent
Today the church honors those who fought the good fight and died for their faith: / The victorious Menas, the noble Victor and the ascetic Vincent. / The church glorifies their divine struggle and cries out with love: / Glory to You, O Christ, the lover of mankind.
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